My First Date

Well, I'm 23 years old, and I just had my first date with a guy I liked. Unfortunately I don't think it went all that well. For one thing, I'm quiet by nature and he was pilled up on Tylenol 3's (thanks to an accident involving a meat slicer and his finger ... don't worry, it's not that bad). So we ended up watching Phantom of the Opera (http://www.phantomthemovie.com), which he watched already, and going for coffee at Starbucks during a blizzard. Damn Alberta weather.

Anyways, the silences seemed nice, almost too perfect that I can have them with him and not have the urge to speak all the time. Plus, he's kind of telepathic ... kind of. There were instances where he would answer a question before I asked it. In fact, thats how we went out. He said yes before I could ask. (just so you know, we were online chatting)

But all this reminds me of my first date, with a girl. It was her Grade Nine Graduation (I know, a big deal just for passing Grade Nine), and her school was taking a trip to West Edmonton Mall (http://www.westedmontonmall.com/home/default.asp) and she had wanted to watch a movie. Now of all movies she could choose, she chose The Opposite of Sex. Sitting throughout the movie, all I could think was "This HAS to be a sign." We broke up, on my side for obvious reasons; but thank god she cheated on me, cause thats what I blamed it on. lol ... what?! I was 16 at the time. Could you blame me? Don't answer that.

What?! Huh?! Fuzzy Wuzzy Was A Woman?

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What I've seen thus far

I have a cousin, who I care for very much. He's 2 years younger than me, but was born in the exact same day I was. We share a birthday and we're family. So for the past decade or so, we've grown close. My mom is close with his mom (heck, they are sisters), so our familys will always be in contact. But, ever since I've seen him jump through a window in an attempt to kill himself. Its been different. And anyone who ever expects a relationship to stay the same after an event like that, is a fool.

I was the only one there that day. I was the only one who could help him out.

Its wierd too, cause no one talks about it; not even him. Not even me.

And I know its changed me. I just don't think that its changed me for the better. Everyone has thoughts and memories that their mind always comes back too, and for me, until I can get past it, this is one of mine.

But yeah, I don't know why I'm writing this in here. I guess I just need to get it off my chest.

Let it Be

Blog's ... I know its the current phenomena and trend to hit the cyber world, but I must admit that this is my first. A virgin to the whole blog world. Now, before I go posting this and that about what I think ... I must say that I don't really do much. WARNING ... most of it is really just thoughts and such ... and therefore, even if I post it, its unlikely I'll feel the same way months down the road. Life is a continuous journey and therefore I treat it as such, for there are always lessons to be learned, people to be taught, and fun to be had. So ... for now ... I'll let the journey begin ... or continue ... or however you chose to look at it, let it be.