The Mountaintop

Just goes to show how much time I spend on the net these days, seeing as I haven't updated in a long time. And so .. here's the jist, about EVERYTHING.

Ever realise that the ground your standing on is actually a mountain? Suddenly you can see clearly where you stand; you can see clearly where your coming from; and for once you can see clearly the possibilities that lie ahead; you see all paths because your that far up. Your still as confused as you can ever be, but you know your just you.

Everything with the business is driving me nutts. Stress is at an all time high with time and resources at an all time low. Working full time and only have one or two days to get stuff done ... its really hard. Especially with a business partner who quit work completely to work full time on this project. MOVING ON ....

Work is work .. just like any other restaurant. Management cares for no one but themselves, and are completely dumbfounded as to why the restaurant (their's, not mine) is failing. But co-workers are great (most of them, minus most serving staff [they ain't the brightest bunch, but I guess thats what happens when your hired for your looks and not experience]).

Ran into an ex. Haven't seen him for awhile; and I was rather surprised to hear about a few things. But at the same, he's getting more of what he wanted than what he could from me (hello leather community, its me .. your admirer). And of course, I must mention that the current beau was mad at me, for 'leaving and forgetting' about him all the while I mingled a leather night at the Calgary Eagle.

To that, all I can say is this, "I'm sorry if my life doesn't revolve around you". Perhaps I'll say that in person one day. I just feel that if I'm going to go around and chat with people, play pool and all in all have a good time (not in that sense [and thats why I like my audience]), then .... well, still organising my thoughts on that one. Lets just say, that for someone whose attached to my hip, for someone I see everyday, for someone involved in everything I do ... I don't get how he can be upset when I don't see him for 30 minutes, one night, in a bar with all our friends around. I don't get it. At least he knows that I don't get it.

Like I said, I'm on a mountain ... I can see all around me. And I can still only take it all day by day.

AND NOW ... some pics. (apparently I can't upload pics on this ... that sucks ... lets try some tuneage)


... damn, that ain't workin either ... going to have to come back and update another day.