Hey Ya'll

Well, unfortunately I've noticed a pattern emerging. There have been few and few posts as the months pass. One month there will be three posts, another would be five, but that sure is little when I look back at the beginning and see the numerous amounts of posts in one week.

Alas, I guess such happens as time goes on. As for a good reason for this, I can blame it on the fact that I have little privacy anymore, well .. did have little privacy at one point. Plus, I didn't really want my roommates to have access to that which are my personal thoughts. I mean, anonymity is okay and having readers is ok, but to suddenly have people think they "KNOW" me just because of what I write in a blog, AND having to deal with them everyday would drive me nuts. So I'd rather not deal with such people.

But, upon reading other blogs today, I've decided to post something again. A lil intro to that which is I. Sure sure I've done that before (I think), but this can be some kind of update since then. I mean, years have passed since I started this.

Hi, I'm a 26 year old guy. My last job was in a kitchen, that was an experience. But as for now, I'm unemployed. I'm the middle child of 5 kids total. Just recently however I've lost my older sister and that now makes four of us. A lil tidbit, I actually lost my sister and my job the in the same week; while I was away on vacation in Vegas (please don't ask if I "at least" had fun in Vegas, I left on the next flight I could). And then, a few days after that, my late sister's daughter had her 8th birthday. The funny thing, my older sister is in fact my cousin. My mother adopted her at the age of 8, along with her younger brother. Pretty ironic that years later my mother would become the legal guardian of her neice at that exact age (my sister had a daughter and was a single mother).

Anyways, with all this going on, I stayed in my hometown for the month of December. A week later, my younger sis would have her 18th birthday, and a day after that I would have my 26th birthday. 5 days after that, we would celebrate Christmas. It was a hectic month. Days before New Years, I would come back to Calgary, even though in my heart I didn't really want to leave home. I was a little iffy about it, I did want to come back, but then again I didn't; and I did when I didn't. All was confusing so I just needed time to myself.

It is now the 22nd. Weeks have passed. And yet, I still find myself wanting to be alone. I haven't really called anyone or been anywhere. But, I am at a point that I NEED a job as oppose to be simply "taking" time off.

I've just been thinking so much lately, and now I need to make a choice. Now is the time to take charge of my situation and grab the wheel and steer. Its been so long since I've done that, and I finally realise that now ... I need to live for me. I just don't know how to do that, yet.

On a postive note, I'm back at the gym. I've always had this membership, just never really used it. I made it about once a week, but never really made any effort. Because of it, my waist is bigger. So now, I've made it about three times a week. It feels good.

As for the post thing, the pessimist tells me this blog is slowly fading to non-existence ... if it hasn't already. Really though, the inspiration is just gone now. I don't have the content to post anything, and if I do I'm too tired to do it ... and the priority list, sadly this blog has dropped to the bottom.

I will still keep it up, just in case someday all inspiration comes back ... but I think, from here on in it'll mainly be a pic site .. just random photos of hotties and what nots. But here's to hoping.