I'm a dick ...

Topic of todays post .... I'm a dick! Can it git any simpler?

Reminicsing (is that how you spell it?)

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Opps, forgot ....

You know .. with so much going on these days, it has literally taken me til last minute to realise that I'm going to Vancouver. *blank stare* I'm actually fucking going to fucken Vancouver. VANCOUVER.

When do you ask? Simple, in 9 hours.

I'M GOING TO VANCOUVER! ... I've never been before. What is one to do if you haven't been there?

Sad part is, one portion (one I've really been looking forward too) is that the road trip from there to Seattle has been cancelled. That sucks.

Oh well, Vacation, here I come.

Elvis has left the building

I know I've said it before, and god knows I'll say it again, but I'm shuttin down. Slowly but surely I feel it coming. With so much to do in such little time and even littler resources to do it (let alone cash), I just don't have time to oblige myself with other peoples jealousy and envy, and hatred and backstabbing, and the wannabe butch's continually puttin up a front; pretty much all the people who want to get a rise out of me or those seeking something from me.

I ain't shuttin down because of my own shit (and god knows I have much of it), I'm shuttin down to save my own sanity from other peoples games.

THANK GOD for this blog, though. I'll still be here.

And the light bulb is lit.

And so trust is slowly meaning nothing these days. *ponders a epiphany* And I wonder why I'm not liking alot of people I meet.

GIT!

I've come to find that I'm gettin bitter with people, and that pretty much applies to most I meet. And its always something, whether I'm hearing the same shit over and over again, gossip here and there, or someones incessant whining; I can pretty much find something wrong with someone.

But I never used to be this way. I've always enjoyed people and their individuality, and the uniqueness that is them. Nowadays, all I hear is the nagging and whining thats reminiscent of Charlie Brown.

Its just politics and politics and politics. It almost feels like I can't even go out anymore.

With a select few, absolutely ... going out with them is always a great night for me. But then, I'm just surrounded with people at the bar that I'm annoyed with (not the peeps I'm actually with).

And I don't know what to do. I'm tired.

I'm going to bed.

Fake Interest

Fake interest is bullshit. Pardon my language, but really ... it is. And thusfully so sums up my entry here. As mentioned, I'm opening up a restaurant and bar. Me and my partner that is (business partner). And we've reached a point where rumors are starting to circulate. Now, I must mention that I have expected as much ... just not so soon.

I now have people who have NEVER paid me the time of day to get to know me, asking me how I've been and yadda yadda yadda. People wanting something, without actually saying it. And what am I to do?

Pretty much nothing. I take it as it comes and express whats actually going. In lamens terms ... I'm telling them that their "sources" don't know shit. Cause I don't know shit.

Either way ... I have people that I have seen for the past year and a half (its been that long since I moved here) paying me more attention than usual. Normally I myself would like it (I'm selfish in that regard), had it not been the reason behind it.

Thusfully, fake interest = KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. And if now, ask yourself ... have you ever done something to make you known in my books. Answer = Yes you have ... and trust me, it ain't good.

PS: This entry does not go out to ALL people, just to most.