Just another day? (also titled "Love And Hate")

Yesterday was Valentines Day. Now some people LOVE the holiday, and thats most likely due to the fact that they are in a relationship. Whether it be a long term one or one entirely new, point is that they are IN a relationship (timing people). But these of course are not the only types of people who love Valentines. Others I qualify as optimistic singles. They feel that 'one day' it will all happen for them and therefore being single for one more day isn't all that bad, they'll simply go out and have fun probably with other singles or tag along with their coupled buds for brief few (I mean, you can't be a third wheel for the entire time, let alone on V-Day). People who love Valentines Day are the ones who feel its special and will buy gift after gift and plan the special meals and whatever. I like these people.

Now, on the opposite end of the spectrum there are those who DEPISE Valentines Day, once again for numerous reasons. It could be that they are heart felt on negating anything that can be commericialised. Or it could be because they are single and are bitter about it (whether newly single or single for quite some time).(am I forgetting anything else?) These people I like as well.

As for me .. I fall under the category that Valentines is 'just another day'. This year, I didn't even notice the hype. No tv therefore commercials are out of the question. Stopped listening to the radio awhile ago, so again commercials are out. And I just haven't been walking around therefore the incessant and excessive amounts of red found in stores is completely lost on me. I just didn't see it. And therefore, this year, I feel I fall under both categories of LOVE and HATE for Valentines Day; simply because I love and hate everyother day.

Explanation: before I met the ex, I was single. And I was single for YEARS. My ex was the first boyfriend for me to ever have. In fact, when I met him .. I was under the impression that I would NEVER met anyone (the joys of small town gay in a conservative province). And so, I was used to it. And besides, not actually being in a relationship, I started despising commercialization that was reminding me over and over again to buy the perfect gift for the loved one who at the time did not exist. These two facts alone should guarantee my despise for Valentines Day, instead it does not. For now, I've had a boyfriend (sure HAD being the operative word, but thats the point). I HAD a boyfriend at a time when I thought the idea was just non-existant for me. And now that I'm single, even on Valentines Day, I find myself with a sense of hope that I will someday suddenly, unexpectedly meet someone.

And besides, yesterday, all I did was bitch at Bell Express Vue for losing my account in their system and having to talk to 5 different people who kept asking me the same questions over and over again; only to be cheered up by a small email from my kid sister who wished me a Happy Valentines Day (she sent me the image to the right). I then proceeded with work, then went home and did some laundry, cleaned house, went to karaoke and chilled with a friend at the bar .. and that was my Valentines Day .. all the while going commando (yes yes, I was free-ballin). A lingering sense of depression was no where to be felt throughout the entire day, for once. And it felt good. Sure the friend who wanted me to help bail him out of a date stood me up, but whatever .. I still had fun. And in the end .. isn't that what its all about anyways?

BTW, picked up Bo Bice's new album ... and can we say AWESOME? We sure can. Here's one song called "You're Everything" ... and god damn is that a great song to showcase his voice. I still protest that he should have won .. instead of whats her face ...

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