Almost Forgot

Okay so I almost forgot the eye candy today. WHAT? I just got busy. Be happy that your gettin something, lol. Oh I'm kidding. As if I would speak to my audience in such a demeaning and degrading manner ... I save that for the family. Besides, thats just bad business. Do you actually see managers/owners putting down their clientele? (somehow I suspect that someone out there is actually reminising about that one.) And besides, I know that not everyone here is ACTUALLY reading my blog. Pft, what you take me for, gulli bull, or a gulli calf? I know that most of my traffic here is to oggle at men and hard bods and perfect smiles and 6 packs and ... and ... *drool*

AND I'm back. Phew .. just the images in my head make me cream. But of course, I do walk around with a permahard afterall. Just ask the bf, he's the one who told me so. Meh, whatever I say. I am who I am, and he likes me for who I am, lol. OH, THAT REMINDS ME, the banner on the side is actually an artist I heard about on trunk guy, or Numba ... or ... oh hell, I don't know. Let me check ... *cue Jeopardy theme music* ... okay, its from GayLab.blogspot.com. The artist is named Miklos Fejes; his site is linked in the headline. You should check out, pretty groovy shit in there. I like.

So ... as you may have noticed I've been rabling on and on thus far about nothing. There was a purpose for that you know. I mean comeon, the banner above is vertical ... I needed words to fill up the space so that the banners intention wasn't lost. I mean scroll up, and sit back without reading ... notice how much better it looks when theres words? No imagaine the words weren't there ... can you see it? Do you understand why? Well, even if you didn't, your still reading this, hahaha. And here I am, rambling on and on. Well, like I promised .. here's some eye candy. I'd give credit where credit is due, however I simply forgot where I got 'em. If they are yours, I apologise. But I never said I was original ... in fact I've frequently mentioned that I recycle pics. And here's some more.

Insert Witty Title Here, Cause I Can't Think Of One

Well, there have been NO RESPONSES to posting the pic the boy (my boy), therefore there will be NO POSTING of the pic. Out of respect to THE Ruff Guff, I will not post it. We were going to see what kind of responses we get, and since we got none, I think thats a clear indication as to what to do next. He'll be happy about it, though. He didn't want his pic up for the world to see, in fact, he retaliated against the posting of his eyes by planting two HUGE RED hickeys on my neck for all the world to see. That fucker, lol. But I love him. Oh, and I love his reasoning as to why he didn't want it up ... but I'll save that for me.

ONTO OTHER THINGS ... .... finally watched Rent last night. Ever since the play came out many moons ago for the very first time, I craved to see it. I NEEDED to see it, but I was young then. And no one wanted to take me, or go with me, and I had no ride .. so sadly it didn't happen. But after seeing this movie, GOD DAMN I wish I had. I would LOVE to see this live. The music, the characters, the storyline. Its all there, and very endearing too. Sure it ended rather stereotypically, but .. it was cute. The BF was giving me a hard time for "dragging" him to go see it, but in the end, when he was wiping away tears, I knew it was worth it. If you haven't seen it, your a fool.

THE Ruff Guff

So, my boy may not want me to do this ... but I gotta. (I can hear him cringe already, and if not, he will after this next sentence). So yesterday I emailed myself a picture of him so that I can send it to an online friend. Immediately my man asks why I'm posting his picture for all the world to see. And that got me thinking ... why not? He is fuggin gorgeous, and I want the world to see. So what do you think, should I post the pic. I have it here, on the computer, and its in an email where I can access it to anywhere that has interent access. Should I? Huh? Should I?

Driving Aimlessly

Well, I hope all my American neighbors to the south had a great thanksgiving. We Canadians ate the goobler in Octocber so I remember quite well what has happened in my home. Yes yes, quite well.

As for my quick weekend Recap:

Friday, bf and I attempted at going out on the town; However were displeased with the attendance at each establishment we attended. (and why the frick am I talking like this?) Summary: Every bar we went to was Dead. However, there was a "Kinky" night at one bar which I really wanted to check out; mainly because I wanted to see just how kinky this city is. But I ain't spending 10 bucks to get in a bar that for one, I'm already a member of, and secondly that the bf and I are not staying at for very long (I had to work Sat. Morning). So sadly, we ditched that bar. Earlier we attempted The Eagle, and dead. The Bunker, dead. Twisted Element, NO WAY the bf and I are going there. Pulse, too new and I figured it'd be dead (heard other people's reviews). so, instead we ordered Pizza and watched Will & Grace on dvd.

Saturday, worked in the morning til the afternoon. Whoop dee fuggin doo. At least I got paid for it though. But nothing much happened, for its getting cold and the BF had to work. So, I chilled until the late evening and went to Karaoke. Good thing about it is that I only spent 20 bucks but drank over 40 bucks worth. ;-) I won 20 more dollars at Karaoke and proudly supported my drinking habit. Yeah, aren't I the smoothest cat ever. Oh, and in the evening, after the bf joined myself in my drinking exploits we ventured back to my apartment only to find my roommate with yet ANOTHER suitor. And may I say, she has some fine taste in men. And also, at this rate she's is not going to have any more men in her work place to sleep with; so I guess its a good thing that they actually do call her back. But, heres the kicker: her suitor is DEEPLY religious, a devout Christian. Needless to say my bf and another friend (who sleeps on my couch from time to time) we having ALOT of fun with that one. And we have pics to prove it ;-) Karaoke = $20. After bar Pizza = $8. Gay jokes at a Christain boys expenese = priceless.

Not too bad of a weekend. At least I was with my boy.

Oh, and the title is in reference to what me and my boy did on sunday. Had nothing to do and no where to go so we just drove around. He showed me around the city, places I may never have seen simply because I work, live and party downtown (unless I'm with him).

Themed Fridays

Viewer Discretion Advised. the following images "my be offensive to some veiwers" and deal with homosexual nature. If you are even offended by the word homosexual, then I advise you to click the "Back" button on top of your screen or click the "X" button to close the window.



As you can tell from the pic ... I've decide to make Friday posts a lil more risque than per usual. Although ... judging from the past few pics, I've been doing that anyways. But, maybe I'll make friday a fetish day or something. Fetish Friday, or Friday Fetish. Hell, maybe I'll just focus it somemore, Leather Friday, since one works throughout the week, I figure one needs time to release some tension and whatever ... and what better way to do that than drool and slobber over some nice pics of men? Well, what better way? For now, I figure I'll let you decide as to how I should go about this. Leave some comments and let me know.







Oh, and here's a lil experiment. I'm going to see how many people I can steer towards my blog using tags for search engines to pic up. Bike, Motorbike, StreetBike, Naked, Men, Leather, Jockstrap, Cops, Fetish, Butts, Muscular, Tattoo, Bear, Bears, Goatee, Facial Hair, Hairy, Buzz Cut, Sports, Football, American Football, Gay, Homosexual .... any other words I can include?

Solitude

So, I've just recently discovered that I'm linked yet again. WOO HOO. To another Text America site (which btw, Commando on the sidebar did work at one point, and so I'm keeping it linked in that it may show up yet again, cuz ... you never know), and DAMN do I love those T and A sites. (hmm, pun sooo not intended, for T n A in this aspect means Text America .. not, well I just won't say it). N E WAYS ... its called Solitude and I must say that the graphics used are spellbinding. I love it. The colour, the distortions the heaviness of its flow is just ... yeah, its good. Here are some samples so you can judge for yourself. (PS, its linked in the headline, in the words of terrible cyber porn "click it, oh yeah")

UPDATE: Blogger sucks. Thats right, I said it. I can't seem to link with the headline, blogger keeps adding my URL address right in front of the URL I'm attempting to link and therefore it won't work. And its a Eblogger preset that I can't seem to find my way around. Any ideas anyone? In the mean time, Solitude is linked over on the side bar. I'll find a way to fix it.

One Month or less

Well, nothing much to post today. Sun is shining and I can see the Rocky Mountains in the distance. They look rather nice with their snow covered peaks. Makes me wish I had the money to buy a snowboard or skates for outdoor skating (at least I have $$$ for skates though, just need to budget).

But of course, in order to get these things I will need one major necessity in order for me to start my winter fun ... and thats snow. I find it odd for myself, it being November 24th and all and yet I still walk in dry pavement wearing nothing but a thin denim jacket when I venture outside. In fact, a couple of days ago, I went out in nothing but a shirt (it was that warm out); and here I am, used to under zero degree weather at this time of year. I'm so used to feet of snow by November already laying on the ground. I'm used cold chills pressing against the windows as I turn up the thermostat. I'm used to the crunching sound snow makes when you step on it in your snow boots (or shoes as mine have been the past couple of years). I'm used to winter.

But no, this year the only indication that christmas is coming is the dreadfully cheery music that incessantly plays in the malls while I window shop; the in-your-face motif of red and green on clothes and packaging and decorations that lay all about no matter where you look; christmas lights of all colours poorly decorated on street houses or the balconey of apartments stories high. Christmas is coming, and no snow for winter fun.

But I suppose there is a bright side. No icy highways to result in cars in ditches or worse, pile ups. No frost bite simply because one wanted to go to the store. No "need" to buy winter gear cause it ain't cold yet. And now, the ultimate advantage to the fact that christmas is coming ... is that my Birthday is coming First.

Although, I still don't know if thats a good thing, for last year I spend my B-Day shopping for others and none of my friends could come to a dinner becuase they were broke or busy because of the christmas rush (my b-day is on December 20, five days BEFORE christmas). So how lucky am I again?

Oh well, if all this talk about winter and snow and christmas is making ya cold, here's some pics that should warm you right up.

And the Time has Come ...

I really need to get off my ass. I really really do. Months have gone by and I'm starting to feel like I'm at a standstill. Sure I was in college last year, but four years of school and only acheiving half way through a degree feels like a waste of time. Not to mention its a degree thats very broad and generic that I know FOR A FACT that having it doesn't guarantee you a job. And besides, when I was in school .. I was depressed too, for years, and my GPA clearly showes that; at the time I just didn't care (which probably explains the choosing of a very generic degree program).

But now, I actually miss school. I miss walking to classes and talking to classmates. I miss venturing into the library or surfing the net in search of data and compiling it all into logical, coherent, relevant arguments. I miss homework ... I ACTUALLY MISS HOMEWORK. I miss student discounts and dinners made up of Kraft Dinner (although I do still eat Kraft Dinner but its not because of being broke from being a student). I miss the running around and the scrambling and the piling of information and stress of mid-terms and final exams and essays.

But most of all, I miss the feeling of knowing your on your way to something. The feelings of knowing that in the end its all worth something and its the something you want. Its the something that will complete you when your finally done all the scrambling and stress and the living of a life thats soo low budget that cooking to boxes of KD is considered a luxury.

When I was in school, I felt that for a little bit. It wasn't long til it went away and I was depressed again and overall just stick in a rut. But since my last days of school when I decided I needed a break and needed something entirely new which thus resulted in my moving to Calgary, everything has been fine. The depression is gone and I'm happier these days. Maybe now I can actually focus on the future instead of dwelling on the present. One problem though: I don't know what I want to go to school for. For I want it all, I want to do it all. But at this point in time, I can only choose one.

So, in an effort to narrow it down (which is probably something I should have done a LONG time ago, but when you come from any fuggin small town, the only main course of action is to get the fug out of there by any means possible, which I did), here some pics to demonstrate what I like. Perhaps from there I'll know what I should be aiming for.

Movies.


Advertising


Photography


Law

and other small things like business ownership of a restaurant and clothing line (web based) and a small productions company for new media. As you can see .. I want to CONQUER THE WORLD! ... I just don't know where to start.

And I awake ...

So somethings been happening to my sleep patterns. You know that feeling you get when your asleep but your eyes are awake and you can actually see everything in the place your sleeping? Your awake but your asleep at the same time? Well, I remember them. I remember them quite vividly for they've been happening again lately. I'd be asleep either in my apartment or at the bf's, and suddenly I'll awake and see something or someone standing in the corner, or on the floor or somewhere. Either way, I'll see someone else who isn't there. I suspect I'm merely dreaming, but the detail is more vivid than a mere dream.

It first happened at my bf's in the middle of the night (not like I really need to tell you when, I mean come on .. when else do I sleep?), I awoke and immediately felt the stillness of the night and the calm of silence and found it unsettling. I sat up as the bf lay next to me, and looked around. And suddenly something caught my attention from the corner of my eye. Immediately I steered my attention towards the foot of the bed to find out what it was, and I seen it again. An arm reaching up from the floor that reaches over the ledge of the bed, followed by another arm; its opposite. And then another arm and another opposite for it. I see very vividly what appears to be two persons pulling themselves up from the floor, crawling upwards onto the bed. Yet, I just sit there and stare.

Under normal circumstances the average joe would be scared, and perhaps I was but never realised it; yet I feel that I wasn't. Instead, such an occurence that so odd and strange is seemingly finding normality within me. Its not the first time I've seen things while suddenly awaking from sleep.

The bf turns around and notices me sitting up and asks concerned if everything is okay. Now maybe its cause I'm still sleeping or my logic has completely dissapated at that moment, but I ask him "do you see them?" Of course he cannot, which I knew in the first place, yet I still ask.

He says its a bad dream, which I still find odd ... finding worth in dreams and judging them as good or bad. But still, thats the way it goes.

I still see them, crawling up the edge of bed in such a manner, in such odd movements I can only describe as unhuman. Have you ever seen "The Ring 2", the scene where the villain crawls up the well? Perfect description there.

"Its just a bad dream, just try go back to bed," the bf reassures. But I don't need reassurance. I know it happens from time to time. For it wasn't the first, and considering my sleeping patterns, I'm certain it won't be the last.

But I guess what matters most, is that when I layed back down, the bf put is arm over me and held me close. He may not have understood, but he was there. I didn't need reassurance, but I got it anyways .... and that felt good.

Mysterious Skin

So I finally watched "Mysterious Skin" last night. Its been a film I wanted to see since I realised that Joseph Gordon Levitt was on it. You remember him, he's from "Third Rock From the Sun"? N E Ways, what appealed to me were the comments on his acting. And after watching this movie, WOW!

Okay, first off .. this movie is twisted. In fact, the clerk at Roger's Video HAD to remind us off the extreme warning label due to the fact that some scene's that may be perturbing to some veiwers. "Disturbing"?! Thats putting it lightly. Let me just tell you this, if you beleive in puppies and rainbows and that everything will work out in the end ... well don't watch this movie. This movie was designed to shock people, and shocking it is. Sure, you don't actually see molestation or anything, but it is very VERY suggestive. Not to mention, the characters bluntly speak of whats been done. In the end I feel this movie's intention was to shock and that no matter how twisted some of the characters are, you can't help but feel for them. Even though if you ever met them in real life, "feeling for them" is probably the last thing you do (first thing you'd do is avoid them). And by avoid, I'm speaking in reference to one's behaviour later in life after a traumatizing event that the two main characters portray; which by the way is performed significantly well by its main actors.

Secondly, the acting. WOW! Joe G. Levitt in 3rd Rock HAS GOT NOTHING on the character he plays in this film. He pulls off the role of emotionally empty street hustler perfectly, thats its almost disturbing (but just keep reminding yourself, its a movie ... I'm sure lil Joe G. Levitt is not really like that). I'd say his acting is so ingenious and deep that its compelling to make you finish the film; even though in some parts of the movie your thinking "Oh My Fuggin God."

But, if you want a film that pulls you in for quite an "experience", this be the one.

Official Movie Site in headline, just click it.

Premise:
"The summer I was eight years old, five hours disappeared from my life. Five hours, lost, gone without a trace ..." These are the words of Brian Lackey (Brady Corbet), a troubled 18 year-old, growing up in the stiflingly small town of Hutchinson, Kansas. Plagued by nightmares, Brian believes that he may have been the victim of an alien abduction. Local Neil McCormick (Joseph Gordon Levitt) however, is the ultimate beautiful outsider. With a loving but promiscuous mother (Elisabeth Shue), Neil is wise beyond his years and curious about his developing sexuality, having found what he perceieved to be love from his Little League baseball coach (played by Hal Hartley veteran Bill Sage) at a very early age. Now, ten years later, Neil is a teenage hustler, nonchalant about the dangerous path his life is taking.

Neil's pursuit of love leads him to New York City, while Brian's voyage of self discovery leads him to Neil - who helps him to unlock the dark secrets of their past. Based on the acclaimed novel by Scott Heim, MYSTERIOUS SKIN explores the hearts and minds of two very different boys who come to find the key to their future happiness lies in the exorcism of their collective demons.

Its Just a Game

And so a few days back, I asked "daddy" to "show me more" ... but sadly there is no new DVD in my hands nor is one on its way. :-( But one still has to thank the internet, cause I can still surf pic to pic. And once again, I find myself at Daddy Ooohh Productions, drooling and wishing, in this case, that I can have a game of Monopoly end with this following showcased conclusion. Maybe this is the kind of incentive I need to sit through the entire game .. and lets face it, as fun as it is to beat and bankrupt your opponent after long hours of wheeling and dealing .. its even funner to just to forget to game do what comes naturally. For us anyways ;-)
(Warning, the following "may" contain scenes of a "suggestive" nature. Discretion is Advised. There, you've been forewarned.)

WTF!?

I FUCKING HATE MARKETERS .. especially those who "lend" their services to your site ... pft, YEAH RIGHT! "Lend" .. more like bestow their services. What am I talking aboot, .. well .. I thought someone left a comment on the last post in regards TO the last post. NOPE, I was wrong. The only comment I received in that one is "Informative as usual". WTF?! Here I am, posting about a situation between the bf and I (really, just wanted him to know that I was thinking about him .. and yes, he thought it was nice) ... and here I get a fucking marketer who some how managed to post a comment even after the whole "type the following to post" feature has been added. ARGH!!! Insensitive fuggers.

*breathes heavily* ... okay, I'm good. But I should add ... don't go to that fucking site. I didn't even go to it. Anyone who posts a website URL on my blog doesn't deserve no fuggin recognition at all. I know blogging is a free fuggin service, but I believe in ethics and courtesy and respect (as much as I try to follow, but I must admit, there are times when I'm a fucker too, hehe) ... and if anyone wants to post a site on my blog had better fuggin ask/email/leave a comment to in order to so. And I MAY just do that ... but in the end, it is up to ME since this is MY portion of the blogosphere and overall MY portion of the web. CAPISHE?

Oh .. for me this is rather obvious, but I may be wrong, but when I do post websites and add links, it cause I like what I see and want to share. My way of shoring respect.

Grey Clouds

The clouds hang low today, heavy with moisture. Yet, it doesn't rain. Instead the clouds loom over the city, consuming what could have been a blue sky; taunting the city's people with it's grey gloom. Yet the citizens continually go about their day; closing deals, proposing, paying, rushing, living ... how it all seems so small today.

My baby's hurt and scared. And I can't help him.

MAGMOZINE

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Leather Accessories

Pay today .. and as a treat, I'm off to Priape to get myself a leather bracelet. Now normally I'd get two since I'm pretty versatile however, bills and collection agencies are preventing me from doing so. So, I'll just get one. Guess which side I'll be wearing this bracelet on. ;-)










More gear I want to get.